On the Monday morning, the guys had some television interviews promoting the upcoming tour and as usual, everyone was getting ready in the dressing room. Maddie was busy pressing clothes and Fifi had already almost finished doing the hair and make-up, so she quickly nipped out to the toilet. As the room was hectic with everyone getting ready, Fifi made her way through to Maddie at the back by the clothes rail and didn't take much attention to anybody around her. She heard someone say AJ so as she does any other time, picks up her things and goes to where he is sitting, he was facing Howie so didn't see what he looked like. Then he turns around and she looks at him, finally. Their eyes met and before she could stop herself, hears herself saying...
"Oh my gd! Alex?!" Drops the things in her hands and runs out of the room. Her heart was racing as she was thinking to herself while questioning what had just happened. Did she really just come face to face with the guy that broke her heart all those years ago?!? Immediately, Maddie scuttles out of the room and takes Fifi to a seated area nearby.
"Fifi, what happened in there? Are you okay?"
Clearing her throat and her voice trembling, Fifi begins to explain...
"I just came face to face wiu Alex McLean! As soon as I looked into his eyes, i just knew it was him. What do I do? I mean, I'm at work, I can't just walk out... I have to be professional..."
"Right, when you're ready, we'll go back in together... Do what you need to do and then you can go home. I'll finish whatever gets left. Straight after you walked out, I saw him go to the toilet so he must be shocked too."
Fifi gives her best friend a hug and holds her hand as they head back into the room. Shorty after, Aled sits himself back down and without saying a word, lets Fifi do her work on him to which it's almost time for the guys to make their way to the television studio. Thankfully no one makes any comments about what happened and Fifi can go home.Flicking through the different channels on the telly, Fifi can't seem to settle herself and all these questions and thoughts rush round in her mind. Why didn't she connect AJ and Alex together, the last she knew, he had joined a group with some other guys and she definitely knew his full name, Alexander James McLean... But then again, she didn't know what the group was called so how could she connect that? Anger keeos seething as she scolds herself for being so unprofessional and maybe she should have waited around to talk to him after he finished work. What should she have said to him but she was too shocked to even think straight...
Quietly muttering to herself as she tells herself...
"It will be fine tomorroe, oh no it won't! How am I going to be able to face seeing him again and am I to say to him... Oh please no..."
"Fifi! Time to get up honey, you haven't got long... Want some breakfast? I've laid out your clothes ready so you go and get ready. I'll pack the car and come back in for you in five minutes."
Sat in the car listening to the radio and some song comes on '... So everyday I find a little something, to remind me, no matter how I try, I can't put the past behind me...' This strikes a chord with her and she sheds a tear. Maddie asks her if she wants her to change the radio channel but Fifi tells her it's fine.
"You don't know who that is singing, do you?" Puzzled, Fifi just shrugs her shoulders...
"That's Alex and the Backstreet Boys... What do you think of it?"
Fifi pauses and looks straight at Maddie...
"He's got an incredible voice and yeah I like it, it just freaked me out."
Amongst the chatter and laughing, Fifi kept finding herself feeling very distant from everyone and kept her distance from Alex. She was in no fit state to be talking to him but being the professional that she prided herself on, soldiered on with her work. Lack of sleep and food certainly played a part in the state that she was in. Thankfully, Maddie worked with Alex although she too didn't really know what to say so just made small talk with him. Occasionallu, Nick exchanged smiles with Fifi and kept an eye on her, he noticed she wasn't her usual cheery, and bright eyed self. When he got the chance, Alex tried to talk to Fifi but every time, she continued to push him away and Kevin intervened by subtly moving him away from her. He didn't know what or why there was this situation but he knew they all had work to get through and offered support to Alex. In a way, this made Fifi worse as she like maybe she was being punished by Kevin especially as far as she was aware, that he didn't know what was really going on. She couldn't wait to get home and hide away!
A few hours later, whilst in her room listening to music, Fifi reluctantly answers her phone...
"Hey, it's Nick! You okay? Been worried about you today and yesterday..."
Fifi takes a moment before replying back...
"I will be, thanks. Just not feeling very chatty right now though..."
She holds the phone as close to her as she can and is certain that she can hear a car engine starting...
"Meet me outside in ten minutes and I'll pick you up... And come as you are, I need to check for myself that you're alright!"
Dressed in her pyjamas and her hair loosely tied up in a ponytail, she waits at the door of her apartment. It wasn't long before Nick arrives in hs flashy car and opens the car door for her. In she climbs and sits quietly looking out of the window, staring into space. He finally pulls into a car park oppsite the public park and leads Fifi to a bench overlooking the park lake. He asks her if she's okay and straight away, she starts crying so he wraps his arm around her. By this point, Fifi is relieved to finally let herself cry. Not sure where to start, she fills Nickin with what's been going on and asks him if he remembers her telling him about a guy that broke her heart;
"Is that AJ? It must have been some shock to you? I don't really know what to say but I do know it won't have helped him much either and I'm sure he'll be feeling pretty bad as well. How do you feel now you've seen him?"
Watching the ducks is soothing Fifi as she thinks.
"I, I'm confused. I've got questions and I want to give him a big hug but I'm so angry at home as it's all come back. What should I do, Nick?"
He pulls her in closer as he says...
"Just let yourself deal with seeing him again first and when you're ready, maybe talk to him... It might be good for him to deal with it soon, not just yet with him just coming back. Want me to talk to him?"
She shrugs her shouders and nodding her head in a 'no' motion.
"Thank you for being here for me and encouraging me to open up, it would have just brewed up inside of me and no doubt make me feel worse. I've rotten nights of sleep since his return and have hardly eaten anythng..."
Before she even finished, Nick had started tutting to himself; unamused, Fifi pokes him hard!
"Excuse me, Mr, I wasn't finished talking! I have noticed a few people swapping glances at each other when they see us together, why's that?"
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